I dont even know where to start... I thought I was getting over Bobby. I thought I was doing OK, but Im not. I love him. I love him so much its killing me. I dont eat, I cant sleep. I keep having panic attacks and my heart feels like it is going to beat out of my chest every time I thik about never being with him again.... I dont know what to do.

He hates me. He wont even look at me. Why doesnt he love me the way I love him? How can you love someone for 4 years and then just turn it off like that? I dont get it... I dont understand.

I miss him so much! I want to hold him and kiss him and sleep next to him again. I want to marry him, I want to be with him for the rest of my life. Why doesnt he feel the same way?